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TRUST in yourself. You ARE beautiful in all your energy. EMBRACE it. SMILE. Light up the room. TRUST in your heart. It honestly KNOWS best. You see BEYOND. TRUST in what you see. What your INTUITION tells you. We are here to SUPPORT and GUIDE you. TRUST in us. Photo by Natalya Letunova on Unsplash

It’s crazy where the depths of stress can take you. And it’s hard to see through the murkiness to find the right place to surface. More often than not we resist what our hearts and souls are trying to tell us, and we end up slowly working our way deeper into confusion, stress and anxiety. When we continually give into these feelings, our bodies redirect the healing to try and find balance and we start to dysfunction. This isn’t always a bad thing. If we are aware that this is happening, that our body responds in this manner, this is the opportunity for us to listen. It is a test to our resolve to how much will we punish ourselves until we finally realise, we are denying our truest being. I know this, I’ve experienced this. I believe at some point through our lives, we all do. But I firmly believe it comes down to how we deal with it. How we allow the experience to change us, and how we allow the experience to assist us to grow. Not long after making my big move halfway across the country, I know my stress and anxiety was through the roof. I had done something that I needed to do but wasn’t entirely emotionally equipped to do. I recall so many nights thinking to myself, “have I made a mistake?” but the stubbornness in me wouldn’t allow that thought to hang around for too long. The events that led to where I am, aligned by the divine will. I couldn’t deny the opportunities that it laid forth for me. Through those first couple of years, navigating the ever-changing social climate was tough. I was trying to re-find myself and my identity, trying to connect with new people but I found myself losing the friendships within in the year. Not through disagreements, falling outs or distance, it was more of a timing thing. The friendships I was founding were within the transient population. On many occasions I worried if I would ever find “my people”, you know, your tribe. Looking back through this period, I can now objectively say it was the learning curve my soul required. It pushed me outside my comfort zone to connect with others I wouldn’t have normally connected with. I experienced friendships and relationships I never would have thought to find myself in. Some which really tested my emotionally resolve. I know there were moments where I questioned myself, and that deep fear, the anxiety and lack of self-esteem would kick in. But through all of it, it showed me a way to find my authentic, unapologetic self. When I started to really throw caution to the wind and followed my intuition, life seemed to flow. The puzzle pieces started to find themselves and fall into place. I started to find my tribe. The people who really started to make heartfelt impact on my soul. It was through these people, I felt held. Albeit, it’s taken some time to feel completely comfortable in that thought. As with most social conditioning, I felt such anxiety about being with these people, that my person, my wear-the-heart-on-my-sleeve self was being judged. Until I finally realised, it doesn’t matter. As long as I show up for the friendship in the best way I know how. I find the more I step closer to finding a deeper sense of self, a clear distinction seems to happen to the circles around me. The people who resonate, get closer. Those that seem to carry more of a negative “vibe” or simply don’t gel, slowly distance themselves. It's a constant merry-go-round with anxiety. We crave and feel loss when the friendships and relationships we thought we’re never going to end, drift away. We start to run un-necessary scenarios through our heads like “did I say something wrong?” “Am I enough?”. Of course, it’s none of these things yet all these things. Simply put, we are enough. We always have been and will be if we are true to ourselves. When we start to complicate the scenario by giving in to our fears and anxieties of “not being enough” we distort our good vibrations. Those that feel the disconnect from you, those that are already on the path of drifting away will interpret these feelings, and eventually use them as cause to drift further. It’s like flipping a magnet and creating polarisation. The same energies attract. If we can believe in ourselves long enough to disregard the fears, stress, and anxieties that we conjure up, we step into our own sense of self. We feel this deep knowing power. Unfortunately, our social conditioning has allowed us to question the good vibes. It has encouraged us to feel anxious about even having the slightest contentment within ourselves. It takes baby steps to work our way through our emotional scale. As we work our way higher, raising our energies we start to attract the like energies into our fields. Our relationship and friendship scopes, we begin to feel connected. We find ourselves in a state where the lower emotions no longer have a hold on us. We can see them, feel them, but it’s short term. We are finally capable of acknowledging them, honouring the feeling, and then confidently gathering the strength to move on. In my experience, I believe that we don’t truly recognise ourselves until we experience the falsehoods. The struggle of denial and anxieties that our life experiences allow to see, representation of the things we don’t want to have a place within our being. These are the realities that our deepest soul is trying to tell us is a hard no. To experience anxieties is our bodily existence trying to communicate to the rest of the whole, that what we are participating in, isn’t for us. Yes, we may be scared of a potential outcome, but if we can recognise what our response is trying to tell us, then we may be able to identify the feeling objectively. Seeing it as the opportunity, to go deeper, see ourselves and the direction the divine forces are trying to lead us. Throughout my journey so far, my best “ah-ha” moments have come after the deep dip into my fears and stresses of that current reality experience. Whilst feeling so stressed out my brain and bodily sick with fears and anxieties, when I’ve finally sat with the feeling and opened my heart to listen, I feel that instant sense of calm and a direction to move forward. Even after weeks, I can objectively look back on that time and see the clear (or the constantly denied, lol) messages that the universe was trying to send me. It's a such a relief, finding that awareness, the puzzle pieces falling into place, however you wish to describe it. That through having this knowledge gained, that it’s a step closer to finding and opening up to our truest and deepest selves. So, my question to you my dear reader is, what have you discovered through your fears, stress, and anxieties?

Give in, surrender. Feel the magic deep within you. Tune into the vibration, the flow of all cosmic things that the universe is leading you towards. Let go of all resistance, the fear, the doubt. Allow faith to rule your consciousness. Faith in whatever path you are walking, you are supposed to be there. Even if it is full of obstacles that pull you down to your knees and question your purpose. That is the purpose. To question, to learn through the experience. To see the winding rocky path as the tools you need to be whole within yourself. Through ignorance, you will continue to experience the lesson over until it opens your heart and you see. See the truth, your soul mission. The task that will see you on the journey back to the consciousness of the whole.

These are 10 books from some of my favourite authors that helped change my life. This is a collection of books from authors that I’ve really resonated with. It’s not to say that it will be the same for you, but if you’re looking for somewhere to start on your spiritual self-development or to simply expand on existing theories. I hope my little insights on these 10 assist you in your awakening, growth and my experience reading them. SUPER ATTRACTOR – Gabrielle Bernstein This book helped me to let go of judgement and take check of how my own vibration (my mood + mindset) can affect those around you. Also, a good reminder to surrender and allow things to happen as they do, as all that happens, and we experience is for the benefit of our personal growth. LETTERS TO A STARSEED – Rebecca Campbell If you were looking for confirmation about being connected to the universe and the lightworkers currently in practice. This is it. Rebecca talks about the cosmic collective we all originate from, our soul mates, soul families and allowing ourselves to believe we are here for a purpose. LIGHT IS THE NEW BLACK – Rebecca Campbell Primarily focus on the feminine and acknowledging that this generation of females are here to bring light into this world. To birth our current awakening. That it is a part of ALL of us. It’s a great starter book to bring about your belief in yourself and your divine power. THE ALCHEMIST – Paulo Coelho A high rated read. If you’re not one for books that aren’t fantasy stories, Paulo Coelho’s “The Alchemist” is a great place to start to open your mindset that you are a part of something bigger. It takes you on a journey through real life situations and experiences to discover the treasure within. LIVING WITH LIFE – Aaron M. Gregory A great read on the philosophies of allowance and acceptance of self. If you’ve ever struggled with not knowing where to start on your path to finding your light and evolving your soul, this book offers some great practical tools in methods that are easy to comprehend. YOU ARE THE UNIVERSE – Deepak Chopra + Means Kafatos If you’re one for the mysteries of the universe and our practical place in it, this is for you. It’s a more of a science-based approach but it’s a blow your mind kind of thought provoking, spinning amongst the stars approach. And ideal read for the practical and logical mind. THE POWER OF NOW – Eckhart Tolle I think this book makes everyone’s list when it comes to thought provoking and spiritual enlightening reads. A bible to those on the start of their journey. It gives power to the thought, or the silence of it. It’s a true guide to overcoming the fear of our mind and accepting the moment of now. ONENESS WITH ALL LIFE – Eckhart Tolle A collection of inspiring passages from his book A NEW EARTH, the follow up to the POWER OF NOW. This is more of a pocketbook used similar to oracle cards, flip though the pages and intuitive land on a page. Chances are it might be the wisdom you need to hear that day. A COURSE IN MIRACLES A complete, intensive textbook. If you really want to dive deep and do the work, then this comprehensive text is one to add to the list. Full of workbooks to put into place the text you’ve just read, it’s a great way to broaden your knowledge. HAPPY DAYS – Gabrielle Bernstein This is her latest release, and if you’re ready for it (or maybe you’re not but know you need it) it’s a real tear bringer and roller coaster in a good way. She talks about trauma (and let’s be real here – we ALL have it) how to work through all the subconscious blocks we’ve enabled, denying our true selves. A definite recommended read if you’re prepared to really break yourself open. Have you read any of these books and what was your experience? I'd love to hear your thoughts! Love Sharai xx

“Imposter syndrome is loosely defined as doubting your abilities and feeling like a fraud. It disproportionately affects high-achieving people, who find it difficult to accept their accomplishments. Many question whether they're deserving of accolades.” But I think this term just doesn’t relate to our achievements, small business or all the external things we apply it to. I believe we’ve been convinced by our modern-day society that feeling good and all the good things that come with it, aren’t our usual state of being. That when we do find that success, that peace, that inner calm, we’re encouraged to question if we are truly deserving of it; we look around for the next thing that will bring it all back down to a lower vibration. We unknowingly associate those good vibes, as too good to be true. That is imposter syndrome of your inner self. The core of who you are is capable of so many things. But we doubt. I doubt myself! I’ve only come to this realisation myself, through my own dive into the spirit self. I feel on some days I get to a state of acknowledgement of where I am, how far I’ve come in understanding, and I step into my power of being. Then I have this small whisper, of who am I to be… And imposter syndrome steps in. Sometimes it’s instigated with a comment from another of “Why do you meditate?” “Why do believe spiritual existence, consciousness, universal powers?” and these questions could be asked in the manner of the individual truly being curious. Other times it could simply be experiences in our external environment that spark the doubt. But it’s all enough for us to doubt ourselves and our inner voice. Finding your spiritual self, isn’t something that just happens like walking through a door and going, hey I’m here, I’ve arrived! It’s walking into a shopping centre and having to stop at every stall and shop in the centre. And every place you visit, you walk out with something new and your perception of what you knew and desired beforehand, altered. It's a never-ending journey of self-growth. We are cyclic beings. With growth comes change, with change comes growth. Without it how can we ever hope to have more for ourselves? How can we hope to work through our conditioning, release all the badges of negative experiences and crack open our hearts? Having confidence in ourselves is tough. And don’t I know it. I know when I am unapologetically me, fully trusting my intuition, others notice. Strangers will strike up conversations and make comment about my aura, being or sense of calm. (Sometimes the olde imposter syndrome makes an appearance and whispers “who am I to accept this compliment?” or “am I really being my honest authentic self?”) It's the universe acknowledging you, saying I SEE YOU. The challenge lies in allowing that feeling to be the norm. To be confident in everything that you are. You will not be for everyone, so don’t force your being to fit into someone else’s mould. Certainly, consider the reactions that take place, yours, and theirs, and how it can be beneficial for your own growth. When we drop the shadow of the imposter, we embrace everything that our body and soul was destined to be. There will probably always be a small shadow of it for most of our life. I see this as the reminder to my inner self, to trust, have faith, my soul chose now to experience life. To allow growth, to test my resolve and teach me that I AM worthy of all the wonderful things this existence has to offer. To embody all we were destined to be. So, I ask this, how was Imposter Syndrome shown up for you in your journey?

I’m not sure about you, but I’ve really heard and read a lot recently about the concept of The Goddess Rising. And I FEEL it. I FEEL this want to connect to my sisters. It’s not a will but necessity. That the Great Mother of this Earth needs us to connect. To connect with Her and to connect with each other. Throughout this hiccup of life we’ve experienced over the last couple of years, we have been disconnected. Mostly from ourselves, and most certainly from our loved ones. When we connect and interact with others, we raise our vibration. We share our will to love. Have you ever noticed after spending time with a loved friend how much lighter your heart is? I know I feel it. This is the way it should always be. When we connect with out sisters, we open our hearts to the power of the goddess. Our power to nurture and love. A couple of months ago, one of my dear friends invited me to a Moon Sister Circle. It’s a gathering of other women to celebrate the moon, the feminine and our sisterhood in all its glory. It wasn’t until the drive home, that I realised how much my soul craved and needed that connection and celebration. It was something I was quietly searching for in my community, and perhaps I wasn’t vibrating on the right wavelength to receive that energy, but when the opportunity to participate did arise, it was perfect. I couldn’t have asked for a more aligned moment. In the months since, it’s really deepened my research about celebrating our inner goddess. Not in the sense of our external characteristics that we hear about on social media and labelling it ‘self-care’. I’m referring to the true spiritual goddess. The acceptance of all the ups and downs of our emotions, embracing our bodies and the magic it has the potential to create. That being connected to our inner goddess we ooze an aura of sexuality and confidence without outwardly showing any suggestion of it. Somewhere along the away (I believe this is the influence of society, our own mothers and the patriarch figure head) we became disconnected from this inner goddess and were engrained with a sense of shame for celebrating our light. I strongly believe this is something I experienced growing up, that all the womanly things we start experiencing were something to hide and not to be spoken about. That it wasn’t acceptable to have confident conversations about periods, the celebration of the cycle and as it became age appropriate celebrating the wonder of sexual connections. I was taught that it wasn’t something you talked with your peers about, nor discussed the details. And when I mean discussing the details, I don’t mean in a crude way, I mean the discussion of the love energies. I was led to believe it was all about physical connection and the mental (spiritual connection) was downplayed as to be unimportant. Through what I know now, it’s all about the mental connection. It's about embracing our inner goddess and sharing it’s power, it’s femininity with our partner. When that goddess energy flows, it is magic. Learning this, it makes me wonder why we deny ourselves the greatness of love. And I realise it’s our conditioning. That we were led to believe we are not worthy of it until we meet the expectation set by some man way, way back in our history. There was a time when the goddess, the oracle, the mother was revered by everyone. That all phases of our lives were celebrated. And now, I feel that goddess energy rising again. It feels like I’ve been trapped in a dark room and suddenly, a gap has appeared in the curtain and has begun to illuminate the space. It’s only a crack, but it’s enough to see the potential to come. And I’m excited to learn more about myself as another layer of the veil is lifted away. So, this post, is to you, my sister, my SOUL sister. Allow yourself to love, for the sake of love. To feel the good feeling vibrate and weave its way through ALL elements of your being. Let it seep from your pores, radiate through your energy, and shine brightly from your heart. Accept your goddess. If you’re a brother, accept your goddess rising too. Allow the feminine part of you to connect with ALL of your being. A praise any goddess that is present in your life for the complete magic she embodies. Take this small and important step and I think you will be surprised at the energies you will attract. Thank you for being here, in my little space, reading the thoughts that seem to just spew across the page. Until next time. Xx

It’s hard sometimes to determine any particular life event that changed my perception of being and my thoughts on are we more than our existence here on this earth. I think it’s a combination of a whole lot of different things and events that create junctures and obstacles that change our intended direction. There was a time back in 2012, where I can look back and know that I whole heartedly surrendered to the will of the universe. I don’t think I knew it at the time, but there was definitely a sense that there was something bigger waiting for me, the universe had a plan for me. I was faced with weeks of chaotic life experiences, working three jobs (by choice! And one was only a temp job) and trying to make sense of all the emotional discomfort going on. Rather than try and gather it all and control it, I just threw it all to the air and surrendered. What was going to happen would happen, so why force it. During this time, when I did get a moment to pause, I followed what my gut was trying to tell me. Follow the sunshine. I’m not sure what that meant, but I took the advice. So intuitively I reached out to businesses in an industry I hadn’t worked in for 4+ years, sending emails enquiring as to whether there were any positions available and that I was considering an interstate move. One of them got back to me within the week of receiving my resume, I had a follow up phone interview, and then we talked about a face to face one. The timing couldn’t have all been more perfect. My temp jobs were complete, and I had a couple of weeks leave from my 9-5 to recover and find myself again. I used my leave to travel and visit an old school friend and, in the process, make use of the opportunity for a face to face interview. Before my holiday was up, I was offered the job. It was all kind of a surreal moment in time. Without conversation with anyone about my intentions, I had followed my heart and gone through the motions of packing up my life, a place I had lived since birth and completely relocated it all. Within the month of the job offer, I gave my notice and started preparing to pack up my life. The events that followed were pure synchronicities. I had surrenders and I could see the opportunities the universe was offering. I found amazing humans to house share with, we found a place, a street back from the beach (AMAZING!) and my coffee obsession from our collection of local cafes began. Looking back now, I can see the courage it would have taken some people to make a move like this. At the time, I didn’t give it a second thought. It felt right, it felt the right thing to do. And I am so glad I did. I will admit that leaving all the familiar things behind was a challenge. It was extremely lonely. And I’m sure there were many a night of me thinking “had I made the right decision?” and crying myself to sleep, yet all of it allowed (or forced) me to take the time for myself. To work through my emotions, heal on one level or another. To look back and recognise how badly I had handled some situations and hoped for an opportunity to do it better the next time. I can see now that I did in a sense run away from home. My environment was constrictive, oppressive, and toxic. There were great and happy times all amongst that, and those memories I treasure. However, there wasn’t room to grow or to expand on opening my mind, and it wasn’t until I removed myself from the environment that I realised how much healing of mind, body and soul I needed to do. Leaving everything you know behind is by all means, no easy thing to do. Yet so completely worth it. Without it, I wouldn’t have had all the opportunities to meet new and different people who questioned so much of who I thought I was. It cracked me open. Opening my heart to allow a little more of my own authentic light to shine forth. This post is about sharing a little bit of how I got to where I am now. It was scary, lonely, depressing, but through all of that, I would do it again in a heartbeat. Have faith in your inner voice. It knows what’s best for your growth, even if it takes you to the rock bottom depths of your soul, your soul knows what it needs to do to become it’s unforgiving self.

It’s hard to determine the moment where it all began. I’ve always had this sense that the was something bigger, something more. It was this deep knowing that I was full of magic and light. That we all are. However, we have these situations when we’re younger where we are misled by the people we admire. Through my research over the years, there seems to be this common thread. We were veiled. Our innocent selves that dared to unapologetically dream, believe and have faith in magic was closed over. Covered over. And in the literature that I’ve read, there’s discussion that to find ourselves, to find the peace and love that’s within us, we need to lift this veil. This fact alone was enough to light my fire. It was the acknowledgement that I needed to my inner child that it was okay to be a dreamer. To believe we destined for magic. In most texts that you read that cover the topics of veiling, make reference of children having the most connection to the cosmic energies that swirl around us. Their veil is the thinnest, as their minds are innocent to the conditioning of our modern, materialistic world. It was reading this, that I was taken back to memories as a child. We I wondered around the backyard of my family home, playing in the dappled light, and feeling completely connected to the magic of the earth. Feeling like I was some fey creature, bursting full of powerful magic and light. I remember voicing my experience to those I admired, thinking I would receive acknowledgement and a sharing of the other worldly secrets. Instead, I was politely informed, it wasn’t real, I had a great vivid imagination and maybe I should write it down in a story rather that talk about it with others. I think it was this moment, perhaps being around 7 or 8 yrs old that I lost faith in magic, and inherently the connection with my inner magic. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Without this disconnection, I wouldn’t have embarked on the trials and tribulations of my journey and the respect for all the lessons learned. Even the most challenging, heart-breaking, and soul destroying of experiences were predetermined. They are the human experience that guides us through the obstacles of this existence, to find ourselves appreciating the good, the love. To all our soul to reconnect with all it’s parts. Every good feeling is the vibrational response of our soul surrendering to the flow of the universe. Every heartbreak is a chance for the soul to reflect, accept that it is an opportunity for growth and ultimately crack open our heart a little more to the universal energy of love, and the love from our highest self. I honestly believe without experiencing all of the highs and lows myself, I wouldn’t have found myself at the place I am at right now. I also have to give massive thanks to my husband. In my belief, our meeting was destined. As corny as it sounds, we just connected the first time we met. We were both in a place, the beginning of our journeys of truly finding ourselves. In each of our own experiences, we were in a state of surrender. Surrender to the flow of synchronicities. When we came together, it was that “ah ha” moment for the both of us. As if it was all meant to be. Our journey since then hasn’t been without drama. When you start opening your heart, conflict happens. Not just within yourself, but it also reflects with each other. But by encompassing what we have both learnt (or started to scratch the surface of) we’ve utilised these tools and managed to work through it all somewhat clumsily. We each recognise that our souls are here, in this time, to support each other, even if at the time in the moment it might not feel like it. 😆 We’ve come to understand that when we’re functioning at the lower vibration of cosmic energy, we get sick, easily stressed and aggravated and it’s hard to separate ourselves from that human experience. This our bodies intuitive way of communicating with us that it needs help. That there is something in our immediate environment that is causing us harm. The realisation of this communication I experienced through multitudes of ongoing chronic health issues. I found that when I’m not at a place where the vibrations are high, my body starts to tell me. This is a lesson I feel like I’ve been studying for years but I’ve only just started to understand. It’s through these health hiccups, and lack of assistance and resolution through conventional medical means I have sourced alternative healing. It hasn’t been about eating good foods, or low tox living. It’s been about nurturing my soul. It's the saying, when you feel good on the inside, it shows on the outside. But it’s not about the nutrition, it’s the soul nurturing. It’s believing that it is GOOD to feel GOOD. That our spiritual selves and the mind-body connection is just as important to nurture as it is to look after our physical health. I believe it has been through this realisation that I’ve managed to piece together the obstacles life has been throwing at me. For a time, I felt like I was aimlessly wandering around in circles, revisiting the same conclusions. Until one day, I threw up my hands and said “fuck it”. I let go. I surrendered. It was the biggest sense of relief and I started to have faith that anything was possible. I breathed deeper into my human experience. I stopped worrying about where I was going. From what I have learnt so far, my soul chose to HERE, at this time in our existence, to LIVE the human experience and FEEL all the emotions. To be a part of the awakening, including my own. I believe, that when one of us, one of the starseeds awaken, we ripple. We ripple our awakening to cosmic energies, to nudge the collective to open their own eyes. So for now, I thought it timely I start writing my thoughts to share with others. At this time on earth there is this hum. We can all sense it to some degree. It’s creating a ripple, a vibrational change to our beings. Most of us are unsure of what this deep feeling is, but we are recognising the feeling that some greater purpose is at work. Something big beyond our reach. My purpose for now in writing this blog, is to open the channels of communication, to share my journey, my heart as I work through this collective awakening. All in the hopes that you, the reader, feel a connection. A small spark, a smile, a knowing that you are not alone in this. Know that I am here, offering my hand to walk beside you as we learn to bring down the walls of ancestral conditioning and embrace our souls, our being as something so full of power and magic. What I share may not be much to some, perhaps a simple resonance or validation of your own journey to unlocking your true and higher self, or it could be that light that helps you find your way through the shadow filled and dark days. Whatever it may be, I thank you now for taking the time to read and allow me to share a piece of my own heart. Until the next post, find peace within your heart. ♥

Welcome to my blog. A place where I write about my journey through life, my discovery of holistic health and wellness practices but most of all my journey through spiritual healing. The more I learn, the more I want to share that knowledge. Not so much to stroke my ego, but from a place of love. From a place where I feel compelled to share if it all it does is light the tiniest spark within the reader to start their own journey. I whole-heartedly believe we are in amongst a massive cosmic shift. It’s this knowing that the earth is trying to give us a nudge, a shake, any type of sign that we need to awaken. To the thought of something bigger, but most of all the awakening to ourselves and the opening of our hearts. We have become so involved with pleasing ourselves, outside of ourselves. What I mean by that, is we’ve convinced ourselves that happiness, greatness, abundance is all achievable by exterior means. That if we don’t meet that benchmark, that expectation we can’t allow ourselves to BE happy. It’s not true. All of what we crave, is within us. We are the most amazing beings with exponential potential, yet we dampen that. For however that means came about for you, it’s time for us to heal that. It's time to surrender. It’s time to have faith. It’s time to work through all the ancestral hurt and forgive what was before and step forward with love. Crack open your heart and let the light shine out! This place, this blog, is a collection of my thoughts and my experiences and my hopes for what is to come. Thank you for being here, taking the time (because I know the struggles of trying to find the time to do anything for yourself these days!) to read, follow and subscribe if you wish. Head to the bottom of the page and enter your details to find out about my latest posts. With peace, love and light. Sharai xx